Tuesday, August 6, 2013

What seems like a day turns in to a year.........


I never really felt just how fast time passes until I became a parent……until I became a mommy to my daughter Emma Grace.  Although I had often pondered the thought, it never really reached in and grabbed my heart and twisted it as it has during the past 365.  It seems like just yesterday I held her in my arms for the very first time and sang her “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star”.  But in fact  that happened  an entire year ago in a hotel room on the other side of the world in Shanghai, China..  Gotcha Day – August 6, 2012.   Realizing that our first year together has come and gone is almost mind blowing.  But when I step out of my comfort box and look back at the road behind us, it brings forth both laughter and tears from accomplishments and epic fails.  It has been a hard journey of growth for all of us.  The strength and determination of my child alone is admirable and second to none.  We as parents have learned so much about ourselves and each other.  This journey was not easy.  It takes a lot from you.  It changes you.  But this journey is so worth it.  I am so proud to be a part of a family who held each other together through one crazy ride and now find themselves on the other side with a lot to show for their efforts.  And a lot of people to thank. Emma Grace was worth the wait and worth the life changing ride.  I would go through all the years of pain and every moment of past sorrows just to end up where I am here today.  Adoption is a blessing. 
our official Gotcha Day and 365 video: 
 The funny thing is that even after a year of being together I still have to pinch myself.  If this is a dream - I never want to wake up.  It is just so crazy.  I am Emma Grace's mommy.  I am a mommy!   What a crazy amazing year full of blessing and love. 

People ask........people wonder......Will she get a big sister down the road…….for now....no... but.....never say never.  Leaving my job to stay at home for at least the first year with Emma Grace hit and continues to hit our finances too hard to make it a possibility.  But again - never say never.  A lottery win here…..a waiver there.....and maybe…..just maybe….someday…..if its mean to be - It will happen just like it did for the three of us.   So.....maybe we need a miracle.  But after the past 365 days I am no longer afraid to rely on needing a miracle.  I mean after all  - they happen every day.  


The Beginning………


1 comment:

Unknown said...

I googled my name and found that I share it with you! I love your blog. EG is adorable. We were very close to international adoption once. We ended up doing IVF instead. Congrats on your family! From another Lisa Goodson.