Last night was the first night I attempted to sleep in our bed since we arrived home 1 week ago. It felt good but it was short lived. Last night turned out to be the worst night for Emma Grace sleeping in her bed. She had been doing so well, but last night’s problem started with one of her screaming attacks at 12:30am and she would not settle down and lay back down in her bed no matter what. I finally went and grabbed my pillow and blanket and grabbed my spot on the floor in her room and had her join me on the floor. She stopped crying and began drinking her bottle. Next thing I know I am startled from my floor sleep by someone touching my nose. It was her – the girl – wide awake. For the next 2 hours she climbed all over me, played with my hair, touched my face, patted my butt, poked at my ring, gave me the eye etc. etc. Every attempt made to put her back in bed would bring back the blood curdling screams and cause her papa to toss and turn. So I laid on a hard wood floor with a 2 year old crawling all over me in total defeat. When she began to settle down I watched her lay her head down on her pillow and close her eyes – she opened them one more time without looking at me or noticing me peaking at her – suddenly she got the biggest smile on her face. Not a smile like I win – but a smile like I am happy and this is good. She approves of her new life. I patted her on the back and closed my eyes and we both went to dreamland on the floor. I believe Emma Grace is happy here and feels safe and loved………..and that sweet, adorable smile is the only reason I am sitting here downstairs alone drinking my coffee and allowing her to sleep in a bit. I hope she enjoys it – it will not last much longer…..and I hope tonight she can show me her approval in a different manner!!
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